The hair on my head

It’s been 3 months since I cut my hair. 6 months since it started hurting my head. 

Maybe I thought cutting it off would cut off the source of my pain. 

The spinning would stop with the hair growth. It would all go away with the scissors.

I grieve my long hair but it’s not really the hair I’m grieving is it? 

They say I’m filled with fire, maybe that’s why it feels like I’m burning.  

By the time my hair grows back maybe my health will have come back too.  

Today, I’m still chronically ill and now my hair is chronically short.    

  - marikaatmidnight